From Bedrest To Cleaning The House

You would not believe how excited I am.  Over the past six months there were a couple of weeks when I could hardly get out of bed due to the way I was feeling.  Just walking from the bed to the bathroom would bring on heart palpitations which would last for hours.  I would become out of breath practically unable to move.

Now I feel great!  Not quite 100%, but I can at least live life more normally. 

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I’m Moving Again

Okay, I’ve had my time to let reality soak in.  Now I’m ready to share.

This past May I got my first apartment.  It was beautiful and unique.  I was ready to settle into my first home!  I still had some anxiety, but I knew I could do it.

The girl who had agreed to be my roommate bailed on me after I signed the lease.  Not a big deal, so I started looking for another one.  I also looked for work since I knew my savings would only last me so long.  

Why You Haven’t Heard. .

So I’ve kept quiet for quite a while now.  Other than my poetry, no one has heard much from me.  I haven’t talked about my anxiety or what’s going on with me.

The truth is, I’ve been dealing with some things.  They’ve hit me like a cold wind in a frost-bitten face.  I wasn’t prepared to share what’s been happening with you guys.  

What You Don’t Know About Me

Have you ever had such immobilizing anxiety that you didn’t know what to do?

That’s me.

God’s Got Me

For the first time in my life I don’t know what my next move is.  There are so many options, but I don’t know where to go.

Thankfully, I know what to do about it.

It’s Okay To Look Back

Keep going.  Move forward.  Don’t look back.

We are told these things growing up.  It is meant as an encouragement.  We’re told to never give up, to reach for the stars.  Don’t let our pasts hold us back.

But what if we reach the point where the only way to move forward is to work through our pasts?

Unashamed

How deep is too deep?

I can’t help but wonder as I get lost into thought.  I’m still focusing on mental health this week and having revelation after revelation about myself.

In love with Boredom

For those of you who don’t know, I moved into my new apartment on the first of the month. It’s been lovely learning about God and myself with minimal distraction.