For the first time in my life I don’t know what my next move is. There are so many options, but I don’t know where to go.
Thankfully, I know what to do about it.
You know those people who graduate from high school and get to college with no idea what they want to do in life?
That was never me.
At the age of 3 I knew what I wanted to do. I wanted to help orphans. According to Mum, there was something on TV that I saw which explained about orphans. From that day forward, I knew what my calling was.
There was never a day that I questioned my dream. Instead, it became more enhanced with every passing day. I would have revelation about where I wanted to go or what I wanted to do to help orphans. (That’s another story.)
However, I eventually realized that my dream would not come immediately, and the immediate things began to frustrate me.
I wanted to spend more time in my country with my family before going abroad. I wanted to gain more experience an enjoy my life before finding a permanent home overseas. That’s when the questions overwhelmed me.
Where will I study? What do I want to major in? What kind of work should I involve myself in?
I tried to do as much as I could in hopes of reaching my ultimate goal. I pushed and pushed myself until I crashed.
Then I needed to rest. I knew I had pushed myself too far, that I needed a break from life.
I was in transition, forced to deal with the uncomfortable fact that I didn’t know what my next move was.
Fortunately, God has it under control. I am able to relax because I know all things will work for the good in the end. I don’t have to stress about every minute detail of my life. Eventually, someday, I’ll reach my dreams. Until then, I’m trusting in Him to take care of me and get me there safely.
God is the one who gave me my dream in the first place. As long as I follow Him, I’ll get to where I need to go.
Now I’m learning to rest in Him and know that I was never meant to be in control of my own life. I don’t control my circumstances, but God can get me through them.